“He listened yet more intently to what was within him, to the past, to see whether that voice of memory truly foretelling the future would not speak to him again, revealing the present to him as well as the past.”
― Stefan Zweig, Journey Into the Past
Meditation is hard. It’s an honest fact of life that when you try and sit still for however long, your mind will wander about and then you have to constantly remind yourself to come back to the breath and inner peace instead of following your thought patterns that you have created. There, I said it. I am human and sometimes when I sit on a cushion or I am in shavasana my mind will go in a million different directions and I am just beyond frazzled. They say that is when we need to practice the most. If you have time, then practice for 10 minutes. If you don’t have time, then practice for an hour. Or so they say…
Lately, I have taken to listening to my body and see what it really needs instead of forcing it into something. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I do need a good kick in the tush to do my meditation or yoga practice. As of right now though, looking within to what I need is helping me tremendously. Sometimes I will practice for over an hour, sometimes for 10 minutes, and sometimes I just will go with the flow of what I need and do short spurts. Everyday is always something new and we are forever changing. Because of that, sometimes our practice needs to change and we should be more fluid.
We all need to go inside ourselves and see what we truly need to nourish our souls because the answers are never outside, but always within. Why? Because we are all connected to everyone and everything on this planet. Why do you think we have such similar DNA to chimps, dandelions, and other things? We are all made of the same stuff. We feel we should look outside of ourselves for answers, that we need guidance or approval of others. The things is we don’t NEED it in the original sense. More so, it is a good indicator or reminder that we are on the right path so we are able to realize something within ourselves. Our egos trick us into thinking we know nothing, when in reality, we know a lot more than we give ourselves credit for. We just need to go within.
So, instead of beating yourself up because your meditation practice, yoga practice, or whatnot is not how it normally is, just relax. ask your body what it needs and you’ll be able to figure it out and better practice being present. Namaste.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built.”-Rumi
Hello all, I have returned. I took a hiatus from blogging for a bit to recollect my thoughts and get in touch with a few of my emotions I have needed to work on. Sometimes that is all we can do is allow ourselves to have space. We often try to either A) attack whatever our issues are head on without understanding them first, B) ignore said issues and hope they just magically disappear or fix themselves, C) blame our issues on others or try and shove them off onto other people, or D) a mixture of all three and then become extremely confused and/ or angry. I would have to say I was doing all three depending on what it was.
Breaking patterns is never easy. Understanding thought tunnels, triggers, and patterns you have created within yourself is sometimes difficult, but it does not need to be painful. With my shift that I have had this year and all the new things I have done to start this new journey, I have encountered a TON of things I had thought I had dealt with. That is where I discovered that I had done “All of the above”. The self-depreciating monster has decided to show its ugly head in waves and I have let fear, anger, and sadness take root in things that have nothing to do with reality. This has been going on for awhile and well…I’m working on it.
Also with those discoveries, I have become more spiritual because I am starting to unravel this cocoon of fear and chaos that I have created for myself. We are all responsible for our own issues, how we deal with them, create them, and end them. So, I am taking responsibility for those things and moving forward. No more shoving them off on other people. No more blaming others for my problems. No more ignoring them. I will sit, contemplate, and then take a course of action and allow myself to feel and be loved. I do deserve this, its just sometimes you need someone to remind you of that.
So, to help out with this I have come up with a game plan. I’ll spell it out over the next couple of blog posts with points I am working on. Yes, Blogging on the regular is one of those points as well as yoga, meditation and some fasting/cleansing. It will all work out in the end. For now though I will continue my day of hibernating and work on my game plan. Namaste.
“Breath is the bridge which connects life to consciousness, which unites your body to your thoughts.”–Thich Nhat Hanh
I have been doing a lot of thinking, and usually when I do a lot of thinking I don’t get a lot of sleep because I have to get my mind out on paper. This is one reason why I wrote this. It basically sets a stage of where I am at the moment of life. I have all these thoughts swirling about my head and I am not sure what to do with them, except get them down in some sort of writing. I am sure this is because of all the releasing I have been doing lately, so at least I have become productive. I hope you all enjoy and Namaste!
by: Michelle Curry
Living, dying, inhale, exhale, breathe in through your nose and out through your mouth making a “haaaa” sound. Bring all of your energy upwards into your body from the roots, your feet, planted firmly into the ground. And with each breath taken in, let the negativity in your heart dispel outwards. This is the concept of death. Let the old die and the new be reborn. Each breath is intention, each exhale is letting go. We have no control over this; it is a natural part of us. Without breath, we do not live, as without the sun, we do not flourish. Holding onto our negativity, no matter how real it seems, is cheating death and only beckons it closer. For the only thing that is dying is the ego, our souls live on. Constantly dancing in the love and light, enlightenment, oneness, peace; this is waking up. We are waking up from the coma we have put ourselves into willingly. We breathe in new life and exhale all the things that we “thought” were important. It is just a mask that our ego hides behind, trying to grab us and eat us alive, like Coronus eating his children. But with each breath comes awareness and with each exhale comes release. It is but a moment in time, much like a breath only lasts as long as a few seconds, fleeting at best. Breathe in through your heart and breathe out though your feet, let in love and let out false truths. Breath in life, breathe out death, inhale, exhale.
“So long as we have failed to eliminate any of the causes of human despair, we do not have the right to try to eliminate those means by which man tries to cleanse himself of despair.”–Antonin Artaud
So every spring, I tend to do a cleanse. With Seasonal changes, our bodies change and must adapt to the new things around it. That is why it is important to eat with the seasons, and take time to listen to our bodies instead of forcing it to be a certain way. It always is telling us something; physically, emotionally and spiritually. So, what better way to kick off Spring than to pump it full of nutrients from fruits and veggies? No to mention ramping up my yoga routine and spending more time outside. With warm weather comes bike rides, picnics and being one with nature. Who doesn’t love that?
So, that is the reason for not posting yesterday. I had to take a bit to regroup and let go of some stuff. Plus, being super grumpy and detoxing is no fun. Just trying to get through a yoga routine without crying was hard enough, plus headaches and body aches…it was a nightmare. But, with lots of sleep and sticking to things, I was able to get through it and I am a lot better now. 🙂 I’ll be doing this for a few weeks. No gluten. no sugar unless from agave, maple or stevia. Staying the heck away from corn if I can at all help it. Bye bye junk food… I will make my own. (poor Oreos…)
So, what’s on todays menu? Lot’s of herbal and green tea, fresh made juice, and stir fried veggies. Oh, and a handful of nuts and seeds for snack. I might take a crack at making veggie chips this weekend for an extra treat. That will be interesting since I will have hit the one month marker with Bryce on Saturday. I shall post a few recipes of the things I make and let you all know how they turn out. Now, off to go and do yoga at the park! Namaste!
Open the dark side of me
Find where your faith needs to be
Help me gain focus on you
Partly I know what to do
For most of us seasoned meditators we are all aware of the little voices that pop up in our head. All the drifting thoughts that bring us in and out of consciousness, altering our reality, mulling over what could have been and what might be…all voices that need to be quieted because in the end, wondering what might have been if we said yes to going on that date or how we are going to make time to finish that “to do” list does not really matter. It is all hubbub and meaningless chatter within our minds that we constantly tune in and out of during our everyday life. It can be overwhelming at first, but within time we quite the voices and turn up the inner sound of our souls.
The peace that is within us all is amazing and beautiful. Each of our inner songs are unique, just like us…it’s just is a journey to finally get to that point. That is where most new meditators get stuck. “I thought this inner peace stuff was just going to happen? Why can I not stop thinking? Am I not doing this right?” Practice makes perfect they say, but not knowing where to start or how to quiet the mind and “turn up the sound” can make things daunting. This is why I usually recommend people try meditating to music. Listening to other sounds quite our voices and gives us a moment of peace and clarity. Then once we get into our “zone”, then we are able to step away from the outer sounds and listen within. I hope you all enjoy and Namaste!
Hold your ground, hold your ground! Sons of Gondor, of Rohan, my brothers! I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me. A day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. An hour of woes and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down! But it is not this day! This day we fight! By all that you hold dear on this good Earth, I bid you *stand, Men of the West!–Aragorn (Return of the King)
Daily, we all face issues in which we have the choice of either crumbling into a pile or facing it head on. Some days it is more difficult to face our issues than not, and even on rare occasions we have days where it feels like EVERYONE is on our back or lashing out at us for no reason. Most of the time, they are just projecting how they feel about themselves and we just end up being the dartboard. It is not fair or right, but instead of letting what others have to say make you take an arrow to the knee, we must remember that we do have the right to stand up and fight.
Yesterday seemed like one of those days for me. I had several people lashing out at me in one way or another, people being worried, overreacting to certain things and even though I wanted to curl up in a ball and just let everyone see me cry… I didn’t. I just breathed, vented a little bit to a few friends and tried to take it easy. Life isn’t always roses, but things get better. You just have to remind yourself of that.
Wine is constant proof that God loves us and loves to see us happy.–Benjamin Franklin
Being a yogi and an avid mediator, people often ask me why I like wine so much. I mean I am only 23 so I should be drinking beer or mixed drinks right? Nope…call me an old soul, but that is just what I like. “But how can you drink and be serious about yoga?!?!” Here in lies the “issues” most people have while practicing yoga.
I am a strong supporter of having “everything in moderation”, which includes alcohol for me. We are but human and we are not perfect beings. Most religions and strict practices often prohibit alcohol, drugs, sex and other “worldly” things. If someone who works 40 hours a week with a family suddenly takes an interest in yoga and you tell them, “You can’t eat meat or drink alcohol again if you practice yoga.” they are more than likely going to turn their nose up at you and say, “No thanks.”
Again, yoga is an ancient practice that has changed over hundreds of years. It’s continuing to change as we know it, so why not change a few of the rules? Sure, if you want you can devote yourself to your practice and do all of the things and abstain from these worldly things if that is your path and what makes you happy. For me, however, I like to look at it as a challenge. A chance for me to practice what I have learned on the mat in my day to day life. Mindfulness at its finest!
This is normally what I do as a mini meditation when I am out and about having a glass of wine. Pick a wine that you know you will love or try something new along the lines of what you already like. When you get your glass, take a moment to look at it and examine how beautiful it looks. Hold it in your hand and swirl it around as you smell the aromas. Let them sink in and enjoy the smell, try even to identify what it smells like. Slowly take a sip and enjoy the flavors on your tongue and then take a moment to breath and sit with the taste. Take a few minutes between sips to have lovely conversation and see how the wine affects you and how the flavors change with each sip. Once the glass is finished, take a moment to sit with awareness of your body and show gratitude. And there you go! Meditation with wine!
Usually if I drink this way, I don’t nearly drink as much because I don’t need to. I am happy with the feeling I get from one glass and I know that I am being mindful in the process. It works wonderfully. It is also easy to do with any other drink or even food. Anyone is able to do it, no special skills required. I hope you all enjoy and Namaste!